I clear it up

Me: "Sir, are you in charge in this store?"
Man: "Yes..."
Me: "My son broke a rice pack yesterday, I am here to pay for it."
Man: "What time was it maam?"
Me: "In the afternoon... it was a 1 kg (I checked it) black glutinous rice"
Man: "Do you want to buy it?"
Me: "No, I want to reimburse the cost. I don't want to bring a loss to the employers here."
Man: "I'll check whether it can be return to the supplier first maam..."
Me: "Ok thanks."

After awhile...

Man: "Maam, it's ok... we can return the pack back to the supplier. You don't need to pay for it."
Me: "Really?"
Man: "Yes, it's no problem."
Me: "Thanks!"

I told Clay at home, that the problem was solved now. Hope he could learn something from this experience, that facing the problem and solve it is not as difficult as we think. Keep delaying to face it will only be a useless burden for us.

Thanks for all responds you've given me at previous post: I apologize, Clay.

Clay has no nightmare anymore last night. :-) Next time, I will learn, try my best, to give him some time if he hasn't felt ready enough to share his bad experience to his dad. I will respect his being afraid, give him some time to deal with his own feeling, waiting patiently and encourage him to face it and solve the problem. We'll tell his Dad together when Clay feel ready but I'll make sure he will do it, and have a concept in mind that he can always talk to his parents about anything.

Next episode about Dwi and Ibeth will be published in a few days!

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To visit the blogs and leave some comments, we can click the link from the title post we read through reader as well. So we don't have to load the whole page, just load the post we haven't read. This is a great tool to bloghop!

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I apologize, Clay..

Warning: I am not proud at all to share this to you. I write this experience for my reference in the future and I also hope you can learn something from this. I also don't expect anyone will say that I do the right thing, what I did was wrong, that's all... I am sad, yes, but I've learn...

Dear Clay,
I keep thinking about this last night, and this matter is the first thing that come to my mind when I wake up this morning. I will tell you chronologically here:

day one, At supermarket, I bought some eggs for us. You broke one egg when you played the trolley. I was upset and I put the broken egg back to the shelf and change it to the good one.

How shameful mother I am! I keep feeling so regret for doing that, Clay. What I did was irresponsible, wrong and shameful. I didn't teach my children to be responsible. I was not act as God wanted me to do. The case was closed, we didn't talk about it anymore.

Day two,
we went to supermarket again because I need to buy a chocolate spread. You were running towards the rice section and took one 2,5 kg pack of black glutinous rice. I was quite far from you and you talked to me loudly,"Mom! What is this?" and braaaak... the pack fell from your hand and broken on the floor. I saw it and I only said,"Aaaaa" without coming near and helping you. I went in ignorance, as if you were not my boy. *sobs* You put the pack back, and run to me, hold my hand worriedly.
I said,"What are you doing? Yesterday you broke the egg, now this."
You said,"I didn't mean to do it, it just fell down from my hand, I only want to know what it is.." I got my chocolate spread and I paid it and leave....

Clay I feel really ashamed while writing this. I was so ignorance, sly, coward, irresponsible... I know God doesn't happy to see me.
Last night you saw me reading the Bible, and you took your Bible to read together with me. You asked me to read Proverbs according to the list schedule. I read it but I couldn't continue to read it! I was reminded to what I did that day and felt so bad. You asked me, "Mom, have you finished reading?" I said, "Nope, not yet. I remember I walked away at the supermarket this afternoon. We shouldn't do that Clay, it was wrong... We have to be responsible for that." You said,"hm..." means that you agree with me.

Before we sleep, Dad was at home already. I wanted to tell him about this but you strictly refused it. You were so panic, didn't want Daddy to hear about this. I said to you,"Clay we have to face this, don't run away from the problem. We shouldn't hide something from Dad..." You said,"No!" and you hide behind my back while I hugged you tightly. You tried hard to cover my mouth as I was trying to tell Dad about it. You started to cry. However, I said to dad, "We did something today, and didn't solve the problem yet. Do you think we have to clear this problem up?" And finally I told Daddy the whole story (not about the egg though) and you cried...

Clay dear,
I feel awful, really I do. I think I made another mistake by telling Dad without your permission. I didn't respect your privacy, ignored your feeling afraid and betrayed your trust to me... the worse mistakes I made that day... I am so sorry Clay for not being a wise mom... terribly sorry.

Dad saw you cried, wisely he said that it was okay. I also said to you, that it was not about you... the problem was about me, not you... I know you didn't mean to break the rice, it was my fault for not paying it and walked away. It was my fault for not facing the truth... The price was not expensive at all, but I didn't want to pay it. How bad I was! I hugged you tightly when I was telling you. Dad told you that you were not alone. It happened to him when he was a kid as well. Dad told you how he once took a beautiful bookmark in a bookstore, and the security caught him. He was so afraid and felt ashame but since then he learned that if he wanted to read books he could always read it in the store (because he had no money to buy books). Until he was in university, he always learned and read textbooks in the book store for hours.
I admired your dad's honesty, he didn't feel ashame to share his shameful mistake to you. I finally opened my heart and shared you the same story... that once I took a little eraser in a bookstore and being caught by the security as well!! Ha ha ha ha...your dad laughed at me. We ended that day by kneeling together before God, asking His forgiveness, His wisdom and mercy. We also prayed to have a pure sensitive heart that will feel uneasy when we do something wrong. We don't want our heart become blunt and can't acknowledge God's truth anymore.

I hope you felt better, knowing that you were not alone, and you came from the imperfect parents like us... *grin*

Oh Clay, how many mistakes I've done yesterday! My ignorance to you was the fatal mistake! I am so sorry... though I know sorry is not enough to heal your painful heart. I hurt inside as well, my son. You screamed and said "NO!!" in your dream last night... so loud... in my heart I really realize that I hurt you badly... I pray for us, may God speeds the recovery in your heart and give me many chances to show you that you can trust your mom... your imperfect mom.

My answers about customer service

Little things for you to know

Try to get free airlines ticket to Kuala Lumpur today... not sure about the date I can go with my family yet, not sure about school schedule on January - April 2009 yet... aaargh.. gave up! You all Malaysian blogger friends, do come here and visit me!

I thank Sandy for her support to Tribute to Moms... she wrote a beautiful post about her memories with her mom on her blog, and I asked her permission to publish the post as a collection in Tribute to Moms. Hope you can join us to support this project.

I also have update My Children's Diary... come over here to visit their room...

Kids Bedroom

Now, Clay is sleep alone in his own room and we don't have another room for Cliff. Clay is happy to be able to share his room with his little brother one day. I remember I promised Clay to buy him a bunk bed one day, when Cliff is big enough to sleep separated from us. It is very heart warming everytime I saw bunk bed picture, believe me... hahaha... I used to sleep 'up stairs' as well with my sister. So this is my imagination about Kids Bedroom furniture. I think it's great to share a bedroom with our sibling.

One day I talked about this with my friend, he said bunk bed is not safe enough for boys... they may be naughty, playing on the bed carelessly and fall down from the top... I should choose lower bed extension instead for the safety reason, he advised. I think he is quite right. Do you always seek for advise before you buy furniture for your home? All we want is beautiful, comfortable and safe furniture and functional at the same time, I am sure about that!

Look at this cute Kids Desk for example. I think the design is really cute that makes kids feel comfortable to play and learn on it! Wish to provide my kids with this kind of desk if they have their own playing room. It would be perfect to be combine with this Wooden Childrens Furniture to store their toys as well!

Health Information

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I am wearing this bracelet for healthy reason now... Are you familiar with this kind of bracelet?
My hubby and I use this together... my hubby wears it at day time and as soon as he is at home he gives it to me to wear it till morning. Wear in the right hand for healing, or in the left hand for vitality reason... Do you believe that?

The bracelet has infra red on it, and magnet to restore our energy balance. Some types of pain and illness are associated with imbalances in these biological electric and magnetic fields. Bio-electro-magnetic therapy realigns the fields to correct imbalances and bring relief in a number of common conditions including Arthritis, Joint and muscle pain, shoulder pain, back ache, neck ache, period pain and stress.

This bracelet can protect us from phone cells and computer radiation. We see this proven. Last Sunday my hubby saw a teenager doing pancho with a little boy. He was talking with his handphone and you know what, the little boy can win over him... My hubby then told the teenager to put away the handphone and do the pancho again... he can win this time... handphone radiation can make our body weak indeed! I am so glad we bought this accessories as my hubby uses handphone ALL THE TIME... almost everytime! :-P Just find out there is a dolphin bracelet!! Waaaa!! So cute!

If you are interested to know more about this... pm me ok? *wink* I can give you reference to buy the best bio technology product... ok? ok?

I got another information about health...
If you and your hubby has been waiting to have a baby for some years, try this trick! Ask your hubby to wear Boxer underwear... hopefully, in a few months, he can make you pregnant...hahaha.. Some couple has tried this... so why not?

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